Home-Made Balti with a little help...

I have been digging deeper into the world of food sense becoming a Pescetarian. (no, it's not for humanitarian reason's, totally personal and working on going full vegan) I want to start blogging my food to help me remember and give people a place to go and see what I have been working on.

Today, I made Indian for Dinner. Balti! I feel in love with Indian food when i moved to England and decided it would be good to try making at home. So, here is what i used.


A whole medium zucchini.
Two handfuls of fine beans.
A third of yellow and red bell peppers.
A whole medium parsnip.
One can of Black Beans.
One can of Patak's Balit sauce. (one of the Helpers)
Store bought/Pre-made Nan. (the other Helper)
Extra virgin olive oil.
Sesame oil.


I cut up all the veggies into relatively small chunks and put them in a big hot pan with EVOO and sesame oil. Tossed it around a bit and added the beans. Then it sat a few minuets in between tosses. Once all the veggies were tender and beginning to brown I added the Balti sauce. Don't forget to cook your Nan according to the direction on the package.


This meal should feed four adults. I didn't time myself to see how long it took but give yourself about 45 minuets to get it done. I bought organic when I could but that isn't necessary. This is simple and can be changed up as needed. Experiment and find out what works for you. That's what i did. Good luck!

Failing Sucks!

I'm a trier. I try lots of things. Sewing for example, I love doing it, I'm not good at it. Cooking, love it, not good at it. Writing, I've got this blog, which I'm not planning on it being great, but I had a few other 'platforms' that i really wanted to make even a small impact with. All it ended up doing was making me feel dumb and talentless. I felt how much the world didn't want to hear what I had to say, even if I was trying to make change for the better.

I am so willing to try but I get discouraged easily and give up. I've noticed this more and more lately. Many women I know, especially the stay at home moms, are so craft and artsy and I try to do some of those things and realize I'm no good or no one likes what i do and it crushes me to the point of depression. I'm not saying this to make anyone feel bad for me. I don't even feel bad for me. It's more like I'm made at me for being so stupid and giving up so often. As a women in my mid twenties most people would think that I've found my self and understand me and my own personality. This, however couldn't be farther from the truth. It's almost the opposite. The older I get the less I know about me and who I am. I've been struggling to find my self worth.

The more I dig into God's word the more I feel my stresses about my self fade. I'm quickly realizing how much I need God right now and how much his love and guidance has kept me from depression. I haven't struggled this much with depression sense I was a freshman in high school. Then it wasn't so bad, I had wonderful friends that would keep me in check and help me out of my personal pit of despair. Now, I feel so alone. Away from friends and family that are stronger then me. I'm having to stand on my own, leaning on God and my husband for support. (with our trying to stress the hubby out too)

The good news is my spout of laziness is over and I'm aware of my pathetic state now, I can effectively and swiftly dive into God and fix this. I'm sick of letting my downfalls bring me down.
Here's to letting God determine my worth!