Faith in Reality.

Is it loss of faith to want to face reality?

I was asked this question today and it really has me thinking. My simple response was "No, it is not loss of faith to want to face reality". Many reasons for my answer went thru my head and I gave the ones that applied to the situation. My first thought, God is Reality. Christ came to earth... ever heard the saying "come back to earth" or "stop living in the clouds" or "snap into reality"? Christ came to our reality to help us in our real situations. How is facing the reality losing faith? Trusting in God when all hope is lost, but what are you trusting him for? Some say that we should never give up and that giving up is also giving up on your faith and hope. Taking action or moving to change things, even when those around say its taboo, is not losing faith. Stepping out, trusting God will take care of you despite what others think or say is a tremendous act of faith.

Going against all odds, throwing your self into the unknown, scared, terrified really, but trusting that God will hold out his hand and cover your heart, That is real faith. Bad things will happen, doubt will come, others will look down in judgement, but God knows your heart. Leaning on him will get you thru. Yes you will get bumps. Maybe even bruises, but you'll be surprised with how strong you really are. Like the song says, "My strength is in you, Lord and My hope is in you, Lord and My faith is in you, Lord". In him we find strength to carry on, Hope to carry on and Faith to carry on. Know that there is more than this moment that you are living for. There is more than this life that we are living for. An eternity with our Father is our goal, our true life's work, and to bring as many with us as possible. Living our life as an example for him, even when our life is a mess. Especially when other's see all the bad and none of the good.

There is one simple thing that everyone should know whenever things are good or bad, God Is Love. He gives it to us freely, all we need to is trust and acknowledge him as our Lord and Savior. God loves all, but we have to except it. He already loves us, cares, and is ready to take on the challenges we face holding our hand and guiding us thru. Are we willing to let go and let God.

Moving!!??

Happy, excitement, panic, nervous, scared, relieved... These are all the feelings that came flooding in when i realized that Ry wasn't joking about us moving to England. I was SO happy and relieved that we would be close to Ry's mom and not in some crazy foreign country all by ourselves. The panic, nervousness and scared came from not knowing what to do and feeling very unprepared.

I can't wait to go and spend time with my mother in law. I want so much for her to see the kids and get to know them. As well as the kids get to know the other side of the family. Plus, all my own family history that I'm eager to learn and see. We (the hubby and I) are so ready to travel through Europe other countries that are at hand. How awesome will it be to visit France and Ireland!

With all this good it hurts me to be so sad about going. I'm going to miss my Family WAY TO MUCH!! I'm super close to my mom and talk to her everyday. Am i going to lose this when we move? Will Ben and Lani even remember me? How will they know how much their Auntie loves them if i can't hug them and tell them so? Ugh! i feel my heart breaking! I can't think about this with out starting to cry.

Another thing, i don't know how our money will work, how to get around, the language differences, driving on the left side. What about sending packages home for holidays? What should we get rid of before we go? The questions are every where and all over the board. Yet, at times i can't remember a thing! Part of me says I'm being to worry some, but another part is freaking out saying "What if there is some thing i haven't thought of?" and "Can i really do this?"

I'm trying my best not to freak out and let my family and friends know how scared i really am. They keep saying it will be all right and I'm stronger then i know but they don't even know half of how freaked out i truly am. My heart starts beating really fast and i feel nauseated and sick to my stomach when we start talking about it. Even now, I'm dizzy.

God, Help me to FULLY trust in you!